Hey Dad,
Well now you certainly did leave a mess for us, last laugh on you huh?! WE are trying to think whether you want us to clean it up or just...not. Everyone is trying their best. I think the one Positive, if anything out of your grand exit was that there exists a new relationship, if not understanding, I think, between your offspring. I think you would be happy to know that.
I never got around to thanking you for that time you and Shirley flew down when Natalie called. I didn't think I needed anyone. I certainly didn't think life was worth living then. So much has changed since then. You have two grandsons and your second eldest granddaughter is graduating and may be heading off to the east coast for college!
I certainly could use your advice today. I always thought your words, although seldom shared, had weight. And wisdom.
H is still hanging around! I will always remember the times we laughed as we compared notes on how she would cough when someone came home at night. All the little things H did. I cherish. I also remember that super funny story (I tell everyone) about the last time you stayed at her place. You called me because you just didn't know what to do, but you knew you could not stay there one minute longer. Incoherent as you were, I got the gist. No son should have to go through a moment like that. But it was just out of control hilarious. I know that you loved her as you could.
Well, this is probably a little too personal for others to read. But one more thing. Sorry for judging you so harshly while you were alive. I did what I thought was right. But I think with children of my own, I think I can understand just a little more. We all do our best at any given moment. It is as it should be. Because I would not be who I am today, without you.
I miss you. I have always missed you.
~tw~